Mrs Calavicci said:
................And could change anything that has happened to you within your lifetime what would it be?
I can think of one thing I would hope Sam could change. Many years ago I was in an 'on-again' 'off-again' long term relationship. He and I could talk about anything, everything, and seemed to know what the other was thinking. Sometime in a rather long 'off-again' time, he .... I don't know how to describe it, but, he just seemed be more than usual distracted. We were still close, still talked, but for some reason he wouldn't say what was bothering him. Suddenly, he couldn't or wouldn't say what was going on, and I couldn't 'read' him at all. We worked at the same place, did the same job, but on different shifts. His work was being effected, and sometimes didn't show up at all. I tried to ask him what was wrong, but he would just walk away. I got so aggrivated at him, I figured he was having a 'mid-life-crisis.' Men! And they talk about us!
Well, one night I was waiting for him to show up at work so I could do a quick shift turnover and go home. He never came in.
My supervisor called me into the office (our relationship was no secret), and with no 'sit down' or 'I've got bad news...' he just said Kenneth is dead. I practically hit the floor.
Suicide. Single small calibur shot in the head.
If Sam could Leap into me in the days or hours before that happened, when I still had a chance to talk with Kenneth, or at the very least slap him up side the head and scream at him to ACT RIGHT! Or get some kind of help, maybe Kenneth would still be with me. Or to say the least still alive. I knew something was wrong, I knew he was having some kind of trouble, but he wouldn't say anything. I never thought in a million years he would do something like that. He just.... wasn't the type.
But he's gone now, and I'll never know if I could have changed what happened. If I had just one day to go back and .......
Still single...
Linda